The Skinny List!
This is the skinny list. I am a bigger girl, I know for a fact that I am a bigger girl. I am overweight, by 100 pounds of the normal weight limit for my age. That sucks, and it's quite embarassing. I know the way I lived my life was wrong, and unhealthy, but I didn't care. I'm going to tell you a story about last summer...
I am involved alot, with my youth group called Altered. They have helped me through so much in my life the past couple years. They accepted me for, me. Even with my flaws. Anyways, It was in august a week before school started, my junior year. I went on a trip with my youth group. We went to Cedar Point for the day. Well I was super excited, cause I haven't been there in forever. Well it was a good day until something happened. I was in line to ride the Millennium
Force. The big blue one that goes through that tunnel thing. Well I sat in the seat, and the belt didn't fit... it wouldnt go around my stomach. My heart dropped, everyone was looking at me, I told the guy I didn't feel good, he tried to put the belt around me. I told him it doesn't fit and I ran out. I went to the exit to wait for the rest of my group. I was devestated... I waited for my youth pastor to come back from the ride.. I broke down, I called my mom, and wanted to go home. My friends comforted me, and I said that was probably the most embarassing thing of my life. It truly was embarassing, I'm a 17 well 16 year old at that time, I should be loving to ride rollar coasters for fun, not worried about if I am going to fit in the seat or the belt is going to fit around me. Well I decided to stay, and continue my trip with my friends at my church. I didn't ride anymore rollar coasters cause I was terrified of the other ones not fitting as well.
That story I have told you, I haven't told anyone. I am ashamed of myself. Of my body. I know God says that he makes you the way he wants you to, and he makes you stronger with everything he puts you through. I lost hope in that. I felt lost, gross, dissapointed, nasty, humongo, you name it I felt it. I still had fun on the trip after that. It still hurt though, I just put a fake smile on my face. Which I do alot of the time when it comes to my self image. I am not comfortable with myself, I haven't bene for a while. Yes I act like I do, because I want to try and help people. And not worry about myself. Well I let that get the best of me. I let myself go, and it's going to be a long hard journey to get "me" back. Let's just say I havent been on a rollar coaster since last year in August..
I am going to make a list, to myself. On what I can do more often, or for the first time, for when I am skinny. Ready? Set, Go! :)
1. Go shopping with my friends, and not going to the Plus Size section.
2. Feel comfortable in a swimsuit
3. Run without getting tired after 5 minutes
4. Join the Airforce
5. Do a full pull up!
6. Excercise and LOVE it.
7. Be comfortable with myself
8. Ride the Millennium Force
9. When a guy I liked before when I was overweight, asks me out and I can say.. no! :)
10. Inspire people
11. Be comfortable with myself
12. Be able to look in the mirror and say "I am beautiful!" And mean it :)
13. Be 156 pounds or lighter and be a normal weight for a 17 year old female
There are MANY more, but I'm going to keep adding on. The list can go on forever. I am determined to reach all these goals. I will reach these goals. I am hoping no I am going to lost 30 pounds by my youth groups annual Cedar Point trip, and I will, ride the Millennium Force and when I get to the top i'm going to shout as loud as I can "I DID IT!!!!!!" And go on it again.
Anyone can have a skinny list, even if you are already skinny, you can have a list of stuff you want to do. It just depends on the person. I hope you make a list of stuff you want to do and look at it everyday, and say, I will, I can.
Let me know what you would want on your list! :)
I am involved alot, with my youth group called Altered. They have helped me through so much in my life the past couple years. They accepted me for, me. Even with my flaws. Anyways, It was in august a week before school started, my junior year. I went on a trip with my youth group. We went to Cedar Point for the day. Well I was super excited, cause I haven't been there in forever. Well it was a good day until something happened. I was in line to ride the Millennium
Force. The big blue one that goes through that tunnel thing. Well I sat in the seat, and the belt didn't fit... it wouldnt go around my stomach. My heart dropped, everyone was looking at me, I told the guy I didn't feel good, he tried to put the belt around me. I told him it doesn't fit and I ran out. I went to the exit to wait for the rest of my group. I was devestated... I waited for my youth pastor to come back from the ride.. I broke down, I called my mom, and wanted to go home. My friends comforted me, and I said that was probably the most embarassing thing of my life. It truly was embarassing, I'm a 17 well 16 year old at that time, I should be loving to ride rollar coasters for fun, not worried about if I am going to fit in the seat or the belt is going to fit around me. Well I decided to stay, and continue my trip with my friends at my church. I didn't ride anymore rollar coasters cause I was terrified of the other ones not fitting as well.
That story I have told you, I haven't told anyone. I am ashamed of myself. Of my body. I know God says that he makes you the way he wants you to, and he makes you stronger with everything he puts you through. I lost hope in that. I felt lost, gross, dissapointed, nasty, humongo, you name it I felt it. I still had fun on the trip after that. It still hurt though, I just put a fake smile on my face. Which I do alot of the time when it comes to my self image. I am not comfortable with myself, I haven't bene for a while. Yes I act like I do, because I want to try and help people. And not worry about myself. Well I let that get the best of me. I let myself go, and it's going to be a long hard journey to get "me" back. Let's just say I havent been on a rollar coaster since last year in August..
I am going to make a list, to myself. On what I can do more often, or for the first time, for when I am skinny. Ready? Set, Go! :)
1. Go shopping with my friends, and not going to the Plus Size section.
2. Feel comfortable in a swimsuit
3. Run without getting tired after 5 minutes
4. Join the Airforce
5. Do a full pull up!
6. Excercise and LOVE it.
7. Be comfortable with myself
8. Ride the Millennium Force
9. When a guy I liked before when I was overweight, asks me out and I can say.. no! :)
10. Inspire people
11. Be comfortable with myself
12. Be able to look in the mirror and say "I am beautiful!" And mean it :)
13. Be 156 pounds or lighter and be a normal weight for a 17 year old female
There are MANY more, but I'm going to keep adding on. The list can go on forever. I am determined to reach all these goals. I will reach these goals. I am hoping no I am going to lost 30 pounds by my youth groups annual Cedar Point trip, and I will, ride the Millennium Force and when I get to the top i'm going to shout as loud as I can "I DID IT!!!!!!" And go on it again.
Anyone can have a skinny list, even if you are already skinny, you can have a list of stuff you want to do. It just depends on the person. I hope you make a list of stuff you want to do and look at it everyday, and say, I will, I can.
Let me know what you would want on your list! :)