Finally, I Found Myself :)
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We all have days that we don't know who we are. Some more than others. Everyone you meet or have contact with has affected your life one way or another. No matter what anyone says. I have been waking up in the past ever since I can remember (A long time) and I would be down on myself. Feeling horrible. Saying I was gross, fat and ugly. I acted like I knew who Brittany Cosper was but the truth was, I was lost. Really lost. I was scared that I was never going to find myself. Everyone goes through challenges in their lives to help build who they are. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. Some good and unfortantly some bad. When people go through bad things in their lives they think its the end of the world. Which it feels like it. You feel like theres no hope, and nothing good can come out of something bad. That's wrong. Something positive always comes out of something negative. You just have to wait. I have alot of people in my life especially this year that have helped me find myself. I thought I would give them a shout out, and how they have helped me.
My Mother: My mother and I never used to get along. Honestly, I loved her but she mad me super angry all the time. After Dj passed away she was my rock that helped me. She hurt cause I hurt. She cried cause I cried. She was my light that led me through the dark tunnel. She always encourages me through situations with boys, school, drama, and most importantly myself. She isnt afriad to tell me what I need to hear. I used to hate it when she did that. I felt like she didnt want me to be happy. I was wrong, shes the person that I know that wants me more happy then anything. We have gotten super close in the past year. I know some kids hate being seen with their parents in public or something. I love being in public with her. Yes she gets annoying, and can be a female dog. But I wouldnt trade her for the world. We have our disagreements but they last an hour at the most. She has supported me in all that I do. If I ask her advice and I dont follow it and I get hurt in the end. Instead of saying "I told you so." She sits there and comforts me until I am okay again. My mom means the world to me. I love her to death and I would do anything for her. Shes my best friend<3 And not many girls can say that. Or they are ashamed to say that. I'm not :) I love you Mom.
My Father: I could say tons of mean things about him cause he makes his daily job to pick on me. It gets rather annoying at times but I know he does it cause he loves me. He also supports me in everything that I do. And if anyone hurts me, whos there? My daddy. Hahah. Sometimes I feel like he doesnt care, but then I realize that he is also a huge supporter in my life. Even if he doesnt show emotions very much. Sometimes it seems like he gets very annoyed with me and the things I go through. Well honestly I know for a fact he does. Haha. But he is still there for me and helps me no matter what. Sometimes I just want to punch him cause he can be mean. But when I wake up every morning and he says "Morning." It makes me realize how lucky I am for the life him and my mother gave me. He my dad, I wouldnt trade him for the world. yes he can be rude or mean. But at the end of the day he loves me more than anything. He supports me in everything I do, we never fight. Well sometimes we do. Haha. He tells me how strong I am and he isnt afraid to tell me the truth. And I appreciate that more than anything. I love you Dad.
Kacey Wright: My drop dead gorgeous red headed friend. We havent been friends for that long. We have known eachother for a long time, but didn't really become friends until Dj kind of made us. Haha. One of the best decisions I have ever agreed too. Kacey is my best friend, other half, my sister. Shes the one person I can go to for anything and everything. She always helps me when Im upset, or if Im happy we share it. So many memories have been created in a short amount of time. When we fight, its for about five minutes. 20 tops. She also has supported me alot through my journey to lose weight and to find myself. She has had a huge impact on me. She so strong and goes through things I cant imagine going through. But she still always has a smile on her face. We have tons of inside jokes like "Canada." hahhahahahahahahahahaha. I have NO Idea what I would do with out her. She means the world to me. Our friendship means the world to me. Shes the person that we could go 5 years without talking (NOT going to happen. FYI) And I can call her up and she would be there in a blink of an eye. No questions asked. I want her to know that I am here for her through everything she has gone, is going through, and whatever happens in the future. Were in this together. One last thing. Kacey you are a great girl. Beauitful, intelligent, funny as hell, fun to hang out with, gorgeous, talented, determined, strong, confident, always smiling. Any guy would be lucky to be with you. Dont go out looking for love, let love come find you. Always remember that. Always smile, cause you have family and friends who do care about you always remember that. I love you Kacey.
My Brother: As much as a little butthole he can be. He is always there for me. Through good times and bad. Yes he picks on me alot, he can be really mean. But he sticks up for me for everything and doesnt put up with people who pick on me. Hes always there, and Im always going to be here to support him. I know hes excited for me to leave for college, but I know he loves me. And he is the best little brother I could ever ask for. Wesley Bober: My adopted little brother. This kid has been through so much, but he is as strong as he can be. He always jumps right back up and does what he needs to do. He is determined, and a great kid. I love him. love you guys.
Nick Stanco: This kid right here, is probably one of the greatest guys I have ever met in my life. He is always so caring about anyone or anything even if he is going through a rough time. He always puts other people first. Hes so nice, yes he can be very weird at times but he is a very big supporter in what I am going through about myself. He has helped me so much in the past couple months with myself. Hes a major reason on why I am more confident about myself. Things dont work out for a reason. But I know I can always go to this kid for anything or everything if I needed to. I hope he knows he can do the same. If anyone knows this kid, dont take the friendship for granted. Cause he is someone who doesnt deserve it. If you dont know this kid I highly suggest you start. Hes a great friend, I used to bully him I guess? We became really close, and I will always look at him as someone who helped me no matter what happens. Also he is very good at rapping and I highly suggest you listen to him. Heres a link :) http://youtu.be/DDdfV3JUQ18 Listen to. Its really good. Hes going to be famous one day. Anyways Nick is someone who doesnt come around very often. Yes he gets mad sometimes but he always forgives people, espically people who have been really stupid and selfish. He doesnt deserve to be hurt at all. He deserves to be loved, and happy. He is someone that has helped me alot, I can finally call myself beautiful. Cause he has supported me 110%. Even if he gets annoyed with me or anything. He is always there. He goes through alot, and his family is one of the strongest familys I have ever met. I love his mom too :) As he loves mine. Which is creepy. Haha. If you need someone to make you smile. Thats someone to ask. Nick your a great guy, funny, handsome, fun to hang out with, great personality, caring, strong. Dont let anyone else tell you differently. And Thank you so much. Love you.
I have many more. But these are the tops ones as of right now. I am greatful for everyone and anyone who has helped me. I love you all. And Brittany is offically back on the horse :) Time to do me. :)
My Mother: My mother and I never used to get along. Honestly, I loved her but she mad me super angry all the time. After Dj passed away she was my rock that helped me. She hurt cause I hurt. She cried cause I cried. She was my light that led me through the dark tunnel. She always encourages me through situations with boys, school, drama, and most importantly myself. She isnt afriad to tell me what I need to hear. I used to hate it when she did that. I felt like she didnt want me to be happy. I was wrong, shes the person that I know that wants me more happy then anything. We have gotten super close in the past year. I know some kids hate being seen with their parents in public or something. I love being in public with her. Yes she gets annoying, and can be a female dog. But I wouldnt trade her for the world. We have our disagreements but they last an hour at the most. She has supported me in all that I do. If I ask her advice and I dont follow it and I get hurt in the end. Instead of saying "I told you so." She sits there and comforts me until I am okay again. My mom means the world to me. I love her to death and I would do anything for her. Shes my best friend<3 And not many girls can say that. Or they are ashamed to say that. I'm not :) I love you Mom.
My Father: I could say tons of mean things about him cause he makes his daily job to pick on me. It gets rather annoying at times but I know he does it cause he loves me. He also supports me in everything that I do. And if anyone hurts me, whos there? My daddy. Hahah. Sometimes I feel like he doesnt care, but then I realize that he is also a huge supporter in my life. Even if he doesnt show emotions very much. Sometimes it seems like he gets very annoyed with me and the things I go through. Well honestly I know for a fact he does. Haha. But he is still there for me and helps me no matter what. Sometimes I just want to punch him cause he can be mean. But when I wake up every morning and he says "Morning." It makes me realize how lucky I am for the life him and my mother gave me. He my dad, I wouldnt trade him for the world. yes he can be rude or mean. But at the end of the day he loves me more than anything. He supports me in everything I do, we never fight. Well sometimes we do. Haha. He tells me how strong I am and he isnt afraid to tell me the truth. And I appreciate that more than anything. I love you Dad.
Kacey Wright: My drop dead gorgeous red headed friend. We havent been friends for that long. We have known eachother for a long time, but didn't really become friends until Dj kind of made us. Haha. One of the best decisions I have ever agreed too. Kacey is my best friend, other half, my sister. Shes the one person I can go to for anything and everything. She always helps me when Im upset, or if Im happy we share it. So many memories have been created in a short amount of time. When we fight, its for about five minutes. 20 tops. She also has supported me alot through my journey to lose weight and to find myself. She has had a huge impact on me. She so strong and goes through things I cant imagine going through. But she still always has a smile on her face. We have tons of inside jokes like "Canada." hahhahahahahahahahahaha. I have NO Idea what I would do with out her. She means the world to me. Our friendship means the world to me. Shes the person that we could go 5 years without talking (NOT going to happen. FYI) And I can call her up and she would be there in a blink of an eye. No questions asked. I want her to know that I am here for her through everything she has gone, is going through, and whatever happens in the future. Were in this together. One last thing. Kacey you are a great girl. Beauitful, intelligent, funny as hell, fun to hang out with, gorgeous, talented, determined, strong, confident, always smiling. Any guy would be lucky to be with you. Dont go out looking for love, let love come find you. Always remember that. Always smile, cause you have family and friends who do care about you always remember that. I love you Kacey.
My Brother: As much as a little butthole he can be. He is always there for me. Through good times and bad. Yes he picks on me alot, he can be really mean. But he sticks up for me for everything and doesnt put up with people who pick on me. Hes always there, and Im always going to be here to support him. I know hes excited for me to leave for college, but I know he loves me. And he is the best little brother I could ever ask for. Wesley Bober: My adopted little brother. This kid has been through so much, but he is as strong as he can be. He always jumps right back up and does what he needs to do. He is determined, and a great kid. I love him. love you guys.
Nick Stanco: This kid right here, is probably one of the greatest guys I have ever met in my life. He is always so caring about anyone or anything even if he is going through a rough time. He always puts other people first. Hes so nice, yes he can be very weird at times but he is a very big supporter in what I am going through about myself. He has helped me so much in the past couple months with myself. Hes a major reason on why I am more confident about myself. Things dont work out for a reason. But I know I can always go to this kid for anything or everything if I needed to. I hope he knows he can do the same. If anyone knows this kid, dont take the friendship for granted. Cause he is someone who doesnt deserve it. If you dont know this kid I highly suggest you start. Hes a great friend, I used to bully him I guess? We became really close, and I will always look at him as someone who helped me no matter what happens. Also he is very good at rapping and I highly suggest you listen to him. Heres a link :) http://youtu.be/DDdfV3JUQ18 Listen to. Its really good. Hes going to be famous one day. Anyways Nick is someone who doesnt come around very often. Yes he gets mad sometimes but he always forgives people, espically people who have been really stupid and selfish. He doesnt deserve to be hurt at all. He deserves to be loved, and happy. He is someone that has helped me alot, I can finally call myself beautiful. Cause he has supported me 110%. Even if he gets annoyed with me or anything. He is always there. He goes through alot, and his family is one of the strongest familys I have ever met. I love his mom too :) As he loves mine. Which is creepy. Haha. If you need someone to make you smile. Thats someone to ask. Nick your a great guy, funny, handsome, fun to hang out with, great personality, caring, strong. Dont let anyone else tell you differently. And Thank you so much. Love you.
I have many more. But these are the tops ones as of right now. I am greatful for everyone and anyone who has helped me. I love you all. And Brittany is offically back on the horse :) Time to do me. :)